13 January 1999 - 6:03pm
I've just changed this journal around slightly to make it much
easier to read. If you read the entries from the very beginning,
then they will flow on from each other, rather than reading from
the latest entry backwards. I don't know why I didn't do this
before... The only section that will be shown backwards will
always be the current week - when you click on the button for the
latest week, it will always go to the bottom, where the latest
After speaking to MissA today, it seems that Isabel likes me, and
finds me easy to talk to. I'm glad to hear that, as I hope to talk
to her again when she returns from Sydney, and I can learn much
more about her. You never know, this might be the start of a
wonderfully long adventure...
I've also decided to change just slightly the writing style for
this journal. I intend to continue as I have been, but to add the
occasional pondering of the mysteries of life - at least, the
mysteries as they relate to me.
I don't think I've mentioned before my spiritual beliefs. It's
about time that I mentioned them, as I intend talking more about
my spiritual beliefs in here.
If I'm forced to put my beliefs into a category, then I'd call it
spirituality. I believe in the existence of spirits,
reincarnation, karma, etc. I live my life according to my beliefs
on karma - what goes around comes around - and so I always think
about what I want to acheive from my actions. Will doing it hurt
anyone else in any way, or hurt me? Will doing it benefit me or
someone else? Those are often questions that go through my mind.
If there's ever a negative response from myself in answer to those
questions, then I'm likely to either find some other way of doing
it, or not do it at all.
I also follow with a passion the following motto - It's better to
attempt something great and fail, than attempt nothing and
succeed. I'm not afraid of failure, because only through the risk
of failure are my possible rewards worthwhile. What I mean by that
is that the greater the reward, so is the greater the risk of
failure and yet, by avoiding the risks we are also avoiding the
I want to be a teacher of spirituality, however I know that it's
going to be some years yet before I feel I'm ready to do this
properly. Some years ago I ran a spiritual development group,
which eventually evolved to a personal development group when I
realised I can't teach people how to change their reality when
they didn't understand how they fit into their reality in the
first place. It was worthwhile for them and they got their rewards
from it, and it was worthwhile for me as well - we teach most what
we need to learn. And I needed to learn how to be an effective
teacher - I learnt that I needed to learn a whole lot more. Life
goes on, and it is my progression through life and the interaction
I have with other people which I'm using as my training.
So now you know a little bit more about me.
Seek always for
the answer within.
Be not influenced by those around you,
by their thoughts or their words.